I found out yesterday that my brother is dying. He is 51 and has Acute Myeloid Leukemia and he is suffering from fungal pneumonia right now. They have sent him home to spend the next few weeks there. He is Florida, I am in Minnesota. I lost my job a year ago. I cannot go to see him and that makes me sad. He is my older brother and I love him, I am so sad. I wish I could talk to him and ask him what is going through his mind; how does anyone go on with their day knowing they are dying? There is no dignity in dying this way.

I love him . . .